So yesterday, I was changing into my gym clothes when I found my self subconciously picking out matching items, and making sure my hair and make up looked ok before I walked out into the freezing cold on my way to the 24 hour fitness down the street. Not only do I constantly see old friends from highschool (now that I am back living at home again) I also run into exes (ugh, the thought of it makes me cringe)... One in particular I see quite frequently at the gym, despite my numerous tries to go at all different times of the day... i still manage to see him a little too often. And whenever this happens I seem to get into some kind of workout frenzy and won't stop ellipticizing until A. I have almost killed myself and brought myself to near heart attack/nearly dying from dehydration/etc. or B. He has left and I can give up the act that I am seriously DETERMINED to exercise all night long. Anyway I am not sure what triggers this frenzy inside of me, I no longer am even attracted to him let alone would i even consider dating/reconciling with him, but I just seem to have this odd obsession with being better or something. I am not sure what it is but its pretty annoying. Anyway... another reason for staying at the gym so long is so that I can watch whatever show and want and not be interrupted by my phone going off, or my dad needing help on the computer, or my mom wanting me to help decorate for the holidays, call me a scrooge but I really HATE decorating for x-mas! So all in all the gym seems to be at times either a peaceful getaway where i can catch up on tv in peace and quiet or a time of frenzied working out, where I am sure that I am the only one who is paying attention to my frenzy and how long I stay at the gym working out... I guess you can call me crazy.
XOXO
Kati*
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