Holidays are always interesting... this year is no exception...

So this year, as usual my mom had christmas eve at our house, and my aunt had christmas day at hers. Christmas Eve was full of fun present opening and family games like white elephant and all sorts of other games, like dominoes, etc. Anyway.. this year was quite eventful, ending last night in a semi highschool reunion at a local bar called Tanners. I went there with my usual posse, B, M, and (B's old roommate C). B and I have gone to school together since we were in 3rd grade, so basically we know all of the same people, and i felt a little bad for M and C bc they got sucked into all the highschool gossip and catchups for the evening. And i will say i did find out quite a bit of interesting gossip and it was so great to see all those people again. This is what I love most about the Holidays seeing people that you don't get to see for a long time! It's so great to reunite with everyone. So all in all I would say that I had quite a great holiday. Me and J are trying the whole "friends" thing and I am finding it very interesting, i think he is having a little bit of a hard time that I seem to be doing relatively well from the break-up, and for a guy who was always complaining about having to talk on the phone, he sure seems to be calling me a lot. interesting... I'm not quite sure what to make of this "friends" thing but I guess I will try it out for now. Um lets see... oh i am currently obsessed with this new song be Chrisette Michelle called "Be Ok" it is pretty much my current theme song and I absolutely LOVE IT.
Well lets see I leave for Minneapolis in 3 days and I am pretty excited, i got my new iPod for xmas and I have been downloading music furiously for the trip. I don't think i really have any great stories.... I haven't really been going out to crazily lately, which is interesting for me. Last Thursday I went a dinner party for one of my dad's relatives (his dad's cousin) whatever that makes her to me... and she will be 100 years old this August, and we had an amazing dinner and she stayed up and chatted with us until close to midnight. She had so many great stories and she was sooo interesting.
I am sure there will be many more interesting stories after this Thursday... P is back in town and so is my girl T so I am sure Thursday night will be quite interesting! I can't wait!
Much more Later
xoxo
*Kati
ps. i am currently snacking on the greatest treat in the world... Cinnamon Popcorn from Topsys

So, all the finger crossing in the world couldn't save my Thursday from drama, which has been following me around like a sick kitten all week...

So Thursday night at the Brooksider was moving along great, I was there with M and B, my usual partners in crime, having a great old time. We managed to consume quite a bit of alcohol, and they were playing some of the best music, which is sometimes a little unusual for this particular haunt, but it is always just so damn fun. Anyway, we decided to liven up our night a little bit, by busting out a deck of cards to play f*@k the dealer, now this can be a risky venture considering we are at a bar, and you never can be certain who will want to join in your game. The last week we played a rousing game of quarters and ended up getting lots of very cute boys to join in, and another plus never paying for another drink all night, however this was not the case thursday (hence why the game thing can be risky) Anyway we opted for a game of ftd, because a. the table we had acquired was a patio table with holes and absolutely no good for bouncing quarters into cups of beer, b. i really didn't want to drink beer, it makes me horrific-ly hung-over (as my co-worker KMAC would say... I look like two burnt holes in a blanket...) and finally c. bridge conviently had a deck of cards in her purse. So we begin to play our game, accumulating many evil sneers from girls, and tons of guys stopping by to 'see what we were playing'. now unfortunately one creeper guy came over and decided not to leave... and then preceded to yell out numbers not on turn. Too bad that trick back fired. So we then resorted to purchasing another drink and moving downstairs to the dance floor. Which ended up being quite a blast... we danced to some great oldies but goodies... ya know montell jordan, shoop, tootsie roll, etc then ran into some pretty fun guys from back in high school. So me and b were having quite a fun lil trip down memory lane, m was chatting it up with a cute new boy whom we will call pirate (its a pretty great nickname and me and m had a great time saying RRRR to eachother and him)... when all hell broke loose. Walking down the steps to my favorite spot is J and his friends. Seriously, how could this get any more highschool?! I immediately jet for cover to the ladies bathroom, not a place you want to go in the bsider but I didn't have much of a choice... anyway I decide this is the time when i either need to a. find a cute boy fast and have a grand old time flirtin it up in front of him so he suffers and never comes back here again, or b. leave and make him wonder why i don't even care enough to see him. I opt for option b... surprising for me, but maybe i have learned a thing or two from the past... sorry chris i guess you had to be the one i learned with... anyway... before i can even make it to my car i get a text message from J angry that I was talking to some guy?! Interesting... here is where things really start to go a little insane... he calls before i even have a second to respond, and i answer.... he goes into this long schpeal (sp?) about how i need to wait atleast a couple months before i start talking to anyone and that he had to do this for our own good... yadda yadda... seriously i am getting sick of these chats... and excuse me you broke up with me so I think your opinion on when and who i should date sort of flew out the window at that time. So indeed he ruined my Thursday night, and surprisingly i am not the slighest bit upset or heartsick over the matter of this break up. I am actually thoroughly enjoying my life as a single girl. I guess i am just really and truly done and ready to move on to a real man. Not someone who will play these childish games with me. So lets hope next thursday goes better and if he knows what's good for him, he will most definitly NOT show up this time!!!
xoxo
Kati*

Hopefully becoming drama free as early as next week!!!

me and my partners in crime:

me and m me and b

RUM + DIET COKE = ONE very hung over and very tired fashionista

So last night me and k decided to 'take it easy' and just drink somewhere close to home. Anyway, k and me are not always a good mix when it comes to staying under control. And lets just say last night was one of those nights where our wild-ness fed off eachother creating a scary mix of us both being belligerently drunk, and not being able to contain our laughter through-out the entire evening, that really didn't wind down until the wee hours of the morning. Because of this I am quite possibly the most tired, and cranky person on earth today. Add to this equation that it is currently snowing outside... DISGUSTING, and I am at work... working the longest day in history!!! All i want to do right now is go home and cuddle with my kitten and sleep in my nice warm cozy bed!!! But on a lighter note... i was thinking today about my absolute favorite holiday item, you know something that when you see it, taste it, touch it, etc you are immediately warmed with holiday cheer? And mine is definitly A Topsy's Popcorn Tin full of popcorn! If you have never had the pleasure of tasting this truly amazing popcorn I highly suggest you run to the nearst Topsys/maybe their website? and order one for yourself... and trust me it sounds disgusting, but you can really eat the whole thing all alone... i don't suggest sharing. haha Anyway, my office got one as a gift on Thursday and I have been happily dining on Topsys for the past couple of days. We didn't get the cinnamon kind :( which is the best, but the other three flavors are just as great. Anyway... that is my great holiday cheer for the week! More later, i think i am just really waay to tired and hung over at this point to even force my fingers to move on the keyboard... i wish i could just curl up and sleep under my desk like george from senfeild. Anyway... more later!
xoxo
Kati*

so yesterday was a little bittersweet...

So yesterday I had a pretty great day for the most part... I might have written a little bit too early yesterday saying that it was going along smashingly, but it really was up until about 11:30 that night! Then all hell broke loose. I was minding my own buisness chatting away to a new boy (details much later) and happy as a clam... when all of the sudden out of the blue i recieve 13 text messages in a row from J. Seriously? I have finally started to move on and have been progressively more happy from day to day, when a bomb shell hits my world yet again. What is it about guys that they need to dig up all the old feelings right after you start to move on?! It's so annoying, so quit doing it. Girls want to get everything out and over that day not wait around for a week with their stomachs in huge knots and contemplating every single detail of every single conversation we had about breaking up. So anyway he texts me all this nonesense and it seriously rocks my world. And for the record I have NEVER ONCE said anything negative about him, and despite my anger towards him currently I don't hate him, nor do I wish him any ill will or hurt. And that is major coming from me, ask previous exes who i would constantly talk horribly about and try to make them feel as hurt as I was. I have not done this to J, so it really upset me when he lashed out at me yet again, which according to him, the break up is all my fault bc i hung up on him. please are we in high school? anyway, despite all this i still tried to reason with him and make him see my point yet again, however of course, guys will never admit to any wrong doing so I was completely ignored. Very annoying. However, today is a new day, and I am back on the upswing feeling great and like a humoungous weight has been lifted off my shoulders, plus its my favorite day (Thursday), so nothing could possibly go wrong for the rest of the day (please keep those phalanges crossed) anyway...
I was listening to my very favorite cd, Keyshia Cole, Like you on my way to lunch today and realized my new theme song... Shoulda let you go. and I have been blaring it constantly in my car since, and I think that I will continue until this break-up nonesense is finally done and over.

On to bigger and better blogs... sorry for all the drama recently but it has been consuming my life leading me to forget about other more important things ie cute guys at the gym, ps i have a new hottie that i spotted last night, and celeb gossip. Anyway... So i was watching my absolute fave tv show last night, Project Runway, and I absolutely have a new list.. of course Christian is always my number one. He is crazy brilliant and his detailing is marvelous. I watch that show in awe of his talent. The blazer/shirt that he made for his model during this episode was by far the best of any contestant. However, hot on his trail is kevin (the straight guy) from my previous post. I loved the bustier/corset that he made for his model. And thirdly, is my boy Rami. I know know i still love Kit, but i really think that Rami is quite brilliant and he is one to watch in the future!!! I can't wait to see what happens next!!!

So no more news as of right now... i am sure after i go out tonight and either play a game of quarters at the brooksider or decide that i need to once again drink an entire bottle of rum, i will have many more stories!

so going on to day number seis...

Life is moving along smashingly this week... and i am almost to a full week of singleness... and I absolutely cannot wait for tommorow... Thirsty Thursday..my absolute favorite day to go out. Anyway, yesterday I had a minor set back, a little tears but katie managed to straighten me back out and I ended up waking up happy and full of life. I am currently 'babysitting' my lil sisters kitten mercedes, and she has managed to cuddle with me every night since the break-up and despite that she is constantly attack my feet under the covers, and clawing at my hair ties on my wrist, she is quite a good lil cuddler. So I guess having a lil animal around after a break up is pretty therapeutic and helpful.. i highly recommend it. Anyway.. I seem to have bounced back fairly well and in a few hours i am going to leave here and go indulge myself in some retail therapy. I know its probably not the most responsible kind of therapy but pampering myself and investing in my already out-of-control wardrobe always seems to help me to feel better. Lets see...not much else is new in my life. one of my best friends, K (as we will call her) recently confided in me that she quit hanging around me so much lately bc she didn't like how different i had become when me and the late 'j' had been together. She claimed i wasn't as fun loving or as free as I used to be and she felt he was dragging me down. This has seemed to be the consensus among most of my good friends, and I am throughly annoyed that I didn't even realize that I had modified my personality to stay with him... so annoying. but me and x always did say that a certain someone who i dated before, always knew the 'real' (i guess dramatic and sometimes out of control) me and still loved me... so maybe i should try and find someone a bit more like him next time... anyway... I vow now to never stifle my fun loving personality for a boy ever again! Oh and i have currently added more reasons to why it is so great to be single:
* I can be selfish
* I can go out with my girls/kyle as much as i want
* I have more time to travel to visit places...aka ash big (coming soon to NYC), tasha, and my dottie susie!
* I get to have a great new years!!!!
* and i can move away to cali as soon as i want with out worrying what will happen between me and j.
Tonight... I can't wait to see the new Project Runway.. I know I haven't had a post for awhile about it... but my top 3 so far are:
1. Christian (i absolutely love him... almost as much as Kayne from 2 seasons previous)
2. Kit ( i think she is absolutely adorable and she really knows what she is doing)
3. Jillian/ The straight guy ( these two are tied, and I can't for some reason remember his name but, i really like both of them so we shall see more later)

Oh and I found another quote this one is pretty great and should leave you with something to think about...
"Relationships are like glass, some are worth leaving broken, if it means you will hurt yourself putting them back together." interesting huh?

more later!
xoxox
*kati
a pic of the new improved single me:

So going on day #4 as a hottie single chic...

So not all my friends have been notified of my current relationship status, and slowly but surely all seem to have a comment on my various websites, myspace and facebook. Which is semi-annoying semi-makes me feel loved and cared for. I know they all want to know the scoop but I am just really sick of telling the story so all i currently am saying is yes, it is very true, i am single... and seriously happy about it. Anyway... day #4 is actually a really good day I was a little worried last night that after the weekend of having something to constantly do and look forward to I might breakdown again and start feeling nostalgic about J. But no such feelings have occured. I mean once in awhile i think about him, but all in all, i think i am handling this situation smashingly! Anyway... I had a wonderful weekend, full of new exciting single girlie fun! Anyway, today is the start of a new week and I feel fully confident that it will only get better from here. Keep your fingers crossed for this to be true!!!
And I know this Thursday night and my favorite bar, The Brooksider, will be one of the best Thursday girl night of the season... bc of my new and improved relationship status... and you better believe I will be chatting up that bouncer i have had my eye on all year long! Can't wait!...

details later...
xoxo
Kati*

So my first day as a single girl

So my first day as a single girl went remarkably well... no sudden outbursts or upsets like after my last break up...apparently I am maturing or something. Ha. Anyway, I have realized quite a lot of perks to being newly single and they are pretty great. Don't get me wrong J was a great guy... just maybe not for me, I could have been a little to dramatic and sensitive...
anyway the new perks:
*I can finallly listen to 50 cent whenever i want (j hates him)
*I can finally listen to really girly music and sing at the top of my lungs whenever i want
*I don't have to listen to Tupac constantly
*I don't have to be awakened to blaring "boy' rap in the mornings
*I can do whatever I want, whenever I want
*I can pickup and go on vacation without having to miss anyone
*I don't have to be upset when he doesn't do what i want, or call when he says he will
*I can go out with my girls and get super drunk and just have fun with them all night long
*I don't have to buy any christmas presents (for him anyway)
*I don't have to worry about compromising bc now I can do WHATEVER I WANT WHENEVER I WANT
anyway... more to the list later,
but so far the single life is pretty damn great!
xoxo
Kati

so apparently snowfall marks a huge uproar in my seemingly perfect life

Yesterday was quite possibly one of the worst days of my life, and I am absolutely not kidding in the least bit. I was having ok day, despite the horrible weather situation, and I sort of got in a little fight with J over my lunch break, but it was only b/c i missed him and I have been feeling a little overlooked for the past month or two. We used to always do everything together, like if we went out seperately we would meet up, etc. But anyway things have just been kind of going awry, and I will admit that I am a tad bit dramatic, but he was being completely un-understanding. so anyway the fight blew up into this big dramatic event which resulted in a break-up. Which completely devestated me, for the night. I am currently on the up-swing and looking to a bright and sunny future filled with single girl nights and not having to worry about the rest of my life with him. And i will be free to move whenever and wherever i please without the worry or heartbreak of upsetting someone else. Anyway... I have started on a new regiment to beautify my self and concentrate on only me... which i did a lot of anyway, but now even more so. So I will be going to the gym more regularly... please friends keep me on top of this... and I will be getting my nails done EVERY 2 weeks, maybe starting after xmas bc i have a lot of xmas shopping to accomplish, and keeping up with new makeup, etc So look forward to a new hotter me coming soon...
xoxo
Kati
ps I found another great quote by my girl Bette Davis ( i swear i am her reincarnate well sort of..) I wouldn't worry too much about your heart. You can always put that award where your heart would be...

So its definitly winter... where is all that damn global warming?!

So i know Global warming is really bad, and I shouldn't even be joking about it, but I SERIOUSLY HATE winter! I just looked out my window from work and saw a serious snowfall coming down. Which can only mean, a. freezing cold weather which always = dry skin, dry nose, pale skin, and static!!!! b. tons of clothing, ie layering (which I try to avoid at all costs) c. close-toe shoes (another thing I try to avoid at all costs, unless it is my beloved knee-high boots. d. chapped lips, disgusting (lets just say i should have some stock in chapstick) and finally e. major injuries... maybe not for all, but DEFINITLY for me!!! Every year during every winter I manage to injure myself, sometimes severely others, some just a severe ego injury, and some just minor. One particularly awful fall came when I was a sophomore in college and me and my sorority sister Leeann had gotten up at the god-awful hour of 7am to walk to the library to work on another god-awful thing (Statistics) yuck, anyway... we had to walk b/c it was too icy and cold to drive and there is absolutely no parking on campus when the weather is like this...newsflash ... you girls probably shouldn't be walking. So being the diva that I am i own almost zero pairs of flats (this was all during the time when flats were definitly not in style) anyway... I put on my one pair of "sensible shoes" ha ha they were the new bebe tennis shoes, complete with miniature golf like cleats on the bottom, probably not the best for traction on ice, but definitley very cute! Anyway as we are walking, I managed to slide down the hill from our sorority house to the main intersection, across the intersection and to the sidewalk across from the dorms safely, or so I thought. As we are slowly making our way down the street i hit a patch of black ice and go flying! Seriously land on my ass and back... it had to have looked like a cartoon, like my body was seriously flying in mid air, Leeann turns around and looks back at me seriously panicked, the wind is completely knocked out of me... she tries her best to help me w/o laughing, of course she can't. So she is trying to help me up while holding back laughs, the dorm people are probably watching from their windows dying in laughter, and the passersby (the smarties in cars) are laughing and pointing, while meanwhile I am being over dramatic telling her that I broke my tailbone (which if you have seen me is quite a laugh... i have enough padding back there to never break my tailbone in even the worst of falls) anyway... I sit up and immediately howl in pain so Leeann thinks quickly and calls my roommates to drive down and pick me up... Jess eventually comes to my rescue, but not after half of manhattan has driven by and seen my laid up in all my glory on campus. To make matters worse, I called my dad to tell him the news and he insists on driving all the way out to manhattan, then driving me all the way back to kc, in order to get an xray of my tailbone, which turned out to be completely intact. Talk about awful and embarassing... and the girls still bring it up to this day. Which I might chalk this all up to karma, bc me, griff, and mindy used to drive around on campus during really icy/snowy days and laugh at all the idiots who fell, but this constantly happens to me, and happened way before this one particularly embarassing incident. Anyway... things like that always seem to be happening to me in the winter, hence my hatred for the season. And whenever I bring up this subject to my family in Minnesota (which are crazy and actually LIVE for winter, snow, and hideous slush) they think it is quite possibly the craziest thing they have ever heard and can't believe that I would rather be sweating in 95 degree weather with 100% humidity (no exaggeration) than playing around in the hideous snow! I was actually talking to my older sister the other day and she was getting ready to go outside and take a walk bc it was snowing, then I bragged that it was still 60 and sunny in kansas and I couldn't beleive she was excited about freezing cold temps and frozen precip. So to sum up, i am throughly saddened that the winter seems to have finally hit the great state of KS and I absolutely can not wait to be in sunny california soon!
xoxoxo
*kati

Sometimes I think I really just go to the Gym to see people and to watch TV completely uninterrupted...sick i know

So yesterday, I was changing into my gym clothes when I found my self subconciously picking out matching items, and making sure my hair and make up looked ok before I walked out into the freezing cold on my way to the 24 hour fitness down the street. Not only do I constantly see old friends from highschool (now that I am back living at home again) I also run into exes (ugh, the thought of it makes me cringe)... One in particular I see quite frequently at the gym, despite my numerous tries to go at all different times of the day... i still manage to see him a little too often. And whenever this happens I seem to get into some kind of workout frenzy and won't stop ellipticizing until A. I have almost killed myself and brought myself to near heart attack/nearly dying from dehydration/etc. or B. He has left and I can give up the act that I am seriously DETERMINED to exercise all night long. Anyway I am not sure what triggers this frenzy inside of me, I no longer am even attracted to him let alone would i even consider dating/reconciling with him, but I just seem to have this odd obsession with being better or something. I am not sure what it is but its pretty annoying. Anyway... another reason for staying at the gym so long is so that I can watch whatever show and want and not be interrupted by my phone going off, or my dad needing help on the computer, or my mom wanting me to help decorate for the holidays, call me a scrooge but I really HATE decorating for x-mas! So all in all the gym seems to be at times either a peaceful getaway where i can catch up on tv in peace and quiet or a time of frenzied working out, where I am sure that I am the only one who is paying attention to my frenzy and how long I stay at the gym working out... I guess you can call me crazy.
XOXO
Kati*