So this week has been quite an interesting one to say the least. I have been sort of playing the field, flirting with boys and what not since the break-up, but I have DEFINITLY not entered into a relationship! Anyway, I have been able to juggle a few without any of them finding out until recently. I went to my fave bar where I may or may not have been chatting with an employee, last thursday. Well, everything is going well, until another love interest shows up. AHHHH, I already had to play this event off the week before and did a pretty good job of it, but this time was entirely different! And ended up in a trainwreck by the end of the night. So... it all started when i was chatting away to (we will call him) X when all of the sudden Y walks in behind me.. I turn around and casually say hi, and then turn back to talking to X. At about this time, I decide to go back to the regular bar area to find Mindy, as I walk towards the bar I see Y chatting with another girl, and buying her a drink. This drives me nuts, bc i really do like Y a lot... so I turn to Mindy for advice, she tells me to go up to the bar and buy a drink then give a long a hard look a Y, I try this trick, nothing... so then i take matters into my own hands and go over to chat with X. This trick works as soon as i make my way back over to Mindy.. Y comes right to my side. I talk to him for a little and then decide this is really getting to stressful so I tell mindy I am going to go wait for her in the car. I start to leave, when I see X and tell him I am leaving and goodbye... he says he is going to walk me to me car... so he is behind me when I walk out (apparently Y is also behind him and hears him say to one of the bouncers I am gonna get some I'll be back)... well we get out to the back patio and out the gate when I get a phone call from Y, so naturally I answer... and he is like Kati, you have to get back in here, you need to come talk to mindy, and you didn't say bye to her... so i turn around to go back in.. Y is waiting on the patio... X is right behind me... AHHHHH I am screaming in my head mentally... on the outside I am trying to act normal. SO i just walk inside and leave x and y bythemselves... we get inside and Y tells me what he heard X say... at this point I am livid with X and want nothing to do with him. So I stay inside, get another drink and ignore him. Eventually he tries to figure out what is going on, Y wants me to walk out back with him, but i don't really want to rub everything in X's face so I tell him i am walking out the front. Then Y gets mad, whatever... I can't deal with the drama anymore so i did what i wanted and walked out the front. Only to find Y waiting at the car for me... interesting. We get in a lil spat and he drives me and mindy home. From there I get a call from X, I didn't feel like talking about everything so I just told him I would call him in the morning, when I wake up I see a text from X... that reads: I'm not stupid even though I may look it. Don't bother calling me back... Interesting, I call anyway to set him straight that he isn't my boyfriend and can't really be all that mad at me. I haven't heard from him since. Y is also mad I believe... who knows really with him? we are constantly pulling nonsense like this on eachother... but anyway..unfortunately now i cannot return to my fave bar... b/c i am likely to get kicked out or something even more crazy will happen... it really sucks and my only advice is to NEVER like a boy that works at your fave night spot! keep on a crush basis ONLY!!!!
*Kati
Thursday, February 7, 2008
But I'm PRETTY?!?!.....
So I was inspired to write this blog b/c I am reading this kind of crazy book about all sorts of different characters but one of them is this girl who is dating a boy who has a sort of stuttering problem and she ends up falling in love with him, and makes him start taking speech classes and sort of like constantly improving him... and starts to seriously smother and mother him. He ends up going away on a trip and falling in love with another woman, who is MUCH less unattractive and he confesses to his girlfriend that he is in love with someone else and that he is planning on asking her to marry him, and all the "pretty" girl can say is that but she's so unattractive... once you come back to town you will realize what you are missing and come back to me. He even though he assures her he won't she won't let it go. This caused me to pause and reflect on my past life experiences. For example, my ex boyfriend in college... when I found out he was cheating on me... it was with a girl who was seriously HIDEOUS... i know that sounds so shallow and so awful for me to say, but it was seriously true. And I remember me and all my girlfriends thinking... but you're so pretty how could he break-up with you for her? like she doesn't even know how to do her hair, etc... And I know me and my girls aren't the only ones doing this. We aren't seriously that stuck up that we think everyone is beneath us. And it is a sickening fact that we are constantly always thinking, But I'm prettier, how could this happen?!?! I know its shallow and stupid and obviously there is a reason I think in my case (actually I know in my case) it was b/c I couldn't AND WOULDN'T be controlled and (the ex which we will call C) didn't know how to act in a relationship where i didn't do everything he said, but when it first happened all I could dwell on was that I was pretty... and she wasn't instead of the real factors of what went wrong in the relationship. I tend to do this and use this excuse a lot instead of probably what really went wrong, and it is seriously sickening that it took me reading a stupid romance novel to realize how stupid I've sounded for the past 5 years. Anyway, I am currently writing this blog to wake-up other girls to this, and to make sure that I never use that stupid line again. B/C i knew exactly how that character in the book felt, and it is seriously so conceited it is gross and I never have thought of myself as that way before. I mean of course I have self-confidence, but you know what i mean... Anyway, I just thought that was pretty interesting and wanted to share.
xoxo
Kati
xoxo
Kati
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