Just a LITTLE complication in my Complication Free life...haha

So I have been asking myself a lot of questions lately about my future, and have found that I know almost none of the answers to them. Since graduating from college I have had this overwhelming sense that my life will not just suddenly all fall into place like I once imagined, and that finding your dream job is almost nearly impossible. I feel it is almost the exact same when dealing with finding true love. I know, I know I am crazy to even be thinking about finding 'the one' at a time like this, but I can't help it, all these little thoughts keep bubbling up in my head about finding my soul mate. And at a time in my life when I should be looking forward, on to new adventures, and a new life, why is it that I can't help looking back? And why do I keep wondering can you ever mend a relationship in which both people ended with broken hearts? And then more importantly if you can't, is your heart really ever whole again to give to someone else? Or does the person who broke it still have little bits that you can never get back? And if so, does that mean your new someone can never really have all of you, because part of you belongs to someone else? I guess the saying you never get over your first love is true, but that leads me to wonder, are you ever supposed to? Or is the person whom you can never get over the one you are supposed to be with? Also, if you have moved on, but can't quite seem to get the past out of your thoughts and feelings doesn't that mean you really haven't moved on at all? As you can see it is a never ending circle that I can't seem to get myself out of, I seem to be just confusing myself more and more. I guess I will find out soon enough... as my grandma says... I have my whole life ahead of me and a thousand more mistakes to learn from... I will keep you posted on my ever complicated life...xoxoKati